Baby on the brain

Yep, probably every single day I'm thinking about baby #2. I can't wait to see how Tenley reacts to a sibling, I cant wait to go through the emotions of having a baby with Justin again, and I can't wait to love another child liek I do Tenley.  Isn't it the best feeling in the world to show that much love for someone? I have been thinking a lot of those that want children so badly and kind of feel guilty for how happy I am.  I want so badly for those people to be blessed with a child of their own...just kinda makes me sad. 

I am also getting really anxious because I have been bleeding for 2 weeks!  2 WEEKS! You know, tons of things go through your mind like..."oh my gosh can I get pregnant again if it's all messed up in there?" or "will it be hard for us to get pregnant again?". or the terrified," Does this mean I will miscarry again?".  Irrational? Probably, but those are just things that I am constantly worried about.  I want nothing more than to have a semi big family and want to punch anything in the throat that gets in the way,  know what I mean?

I was reading a blog that I follow daily and she was talking about how nervous she was about losing the second baby weight (you should follow HER, she is hilarious) and it got me thinking about what the heck I was gonna do with ym weight?  I know that weight is not a big deal when it comes to a baby, but I have always kind of struggled with my weight (in my own mind, who doesn't?). SO, I am taking her awesome advice and getting a belly bandit :).  I hope it work wonders like it did for her.  So, now Justin will love me even more for planning this far ahead with the next baby.  Can you believe him, he actually thinks I'm crazy for planning Tenley's 1st birthday party when she was 6 months!   Whatever, call me crazy..but I'm having a blast doing it! July here I come!! ;)